The words of a wise friend. Fact is I hadn’t thought of it this way. I have messed up so many times in my life. The biggest and latest of which was my leaving my job as a teacher because I was afraid. Yes, you read that right. I was afraid. I had gone through post Partum depression so bad after the birth of my first child that when I found myself pregnant with my second I quit my career job in Toronto and ran back to my mommy. I was terrified that the big black monster would return and this time there would be no escape. I would permanently f*ck up my children, my marriage and very likely destroy myself in the process.
I didn’t know at the time I was screwing up. I made the best decision for everyone, and I naively thought I would find a comparable job just as quickly in my home city. Ha. Was I ever wrong. Nearly 7 years later I have yet to find a job to equal the one I left behind.
For a good five years I regretted that f*ck up. And you know what? I attracted nothing but more failure, more regret and more heartache.
You might be wondering where I am going with this.
I am beginning to realize that it was on this very path that I have learned how to honour who I am. I have learned how to forgive. Others yes, but more Importantly, myself. I don’t regret it so much anymore. I accept the pain and the regret because my growth is worth that price.
I am a softer person, a wiser wife and a more authentic human for all that I learned.
I had to f*ck up you see. The path I am on needed to take a hard left to arrive at this place.
And you know what?
The future has never looked brighter😏
**a note to share with you my dear readers that this post was composed and uploaded while riding the bus 🙂 **