Y Power

If you don’t know why you are doing what you are doing, then you won’t get very far. 

Let’s rewind about five years. 

I was a wreck. I was so overwhelmed with the demands of being a mom to two kids under 7, one of whom has some unique needs, that I was drowning. Every time I turned around there was another meltdown, another mess, another call from the school, another bill, another crisis cost…it seemed endless, bottomless, and hopeless. 

Add to this that I had left my full time teaching position in the Greater Toronto Area five years previous in a desperate flight away from what I was certain was going to be my end: my second baby. My first had sent me into postpartum depression from the lack of sleep, the loss of my own identity, and the isolation of new motherhood. Also, hormones. And so I resigned from a job that I could have kept until I retired with the goal of saving my own life. I knew I couldn’t do a second child alone. 

And I naively thought that I would be able to get a teaching job in the city we relocated to as easily as I had out of teachers college. Boy, was I ever wrong. 

What followed was five years of applying for work, first at the board to no avail, and then to whatever I could find. I took and lost job after job. It was devastating. 

And then one day I had enough. I stopped applying, I stopped looking, I stopped waiting for someone else to see in me what I knew I had to give. I hired myself.

Why? What changed? 

I finally realized that no one was going to give me what I wanted and that I had the resources to make it happen for myself. I had an iPad, a Bluetooth keyboard and an internet connection, not to mention skills out the wazoo. 

I did it because I was tired of waiting. I was tired of handing my power away to people who were only going to use it for their own gain, not see it for what it really was, and discard it as soon as it stopped profiting them. 

That deep stubbornness, that knowledge that I was worth more than I was receiving pushed me to give everyone the finger and take back my power. 

Why? Because no one is going to do it but me. 

I am the only one who can. 

And my why is showing that to every single person out there. 

The world is a mess. Everything that has brought us to this point as a species is crumbling, and it’s time to take our power back. It’s not on the corporations, or the governments or your neighbour before it’s on YOU before it’s on ME. 

If we are going to do this thing, we have to do it together. All of us, each in our own ways and our own lives. 

I want you to know how much power you have because the day I realized it was the day my life changed. Not overnight, but I stepped onto a new path, one that led me to people who taught me new skills, gave me new tools, and refused to let me play small. 

You can do whatever you can imagine. Once you unearth your Y Power, you become unstoppable. 

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  1. I am so moved by your story Stephanie. No wonder you encouraged me to step off the cliff and go for my vision. I’m going to share this with my son. I’d like to see him to realize his power.

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